Why I Did a Boudoir Photoshoot

I mean, why does anyone that isn’t a model take sexy boudoir photos of themselves? And no it’s not to become insta famous. For me, not only have I been busting my ass at the gym and eating kale all day healthy, I’ve at a place in my life where I feel the most happy and confident INSIDE as well. I am independent, strong, smart, successful. Fuck yeah I should celebrate those things…and when your inner happiness blossoms it really shows on the exterior as well.

I planned to take these photos a few months back so I could capture this beautiful moment in my life. For me to capture how I feel about myself – confident, sexy, loving, hopeful, open, badass. For me to know that this body I have is a temple. For me to have something to look back on and say DAMN girl. I did this FOR ME. Am I perfect? No, which is what I love. I’m imperfect and that’s what is REAL. No one is perfect, but you are YOU which is the most special and unique thing in this world.

If you’ve ever thought you can’t do something because of our world’s beauty standards, push the boundaries and do it. Everyone is beautiful. Everyone. Embrace yourself. Love yourself! 

This is just part one of this shoot, I plan to share what went into a shoot like this, how all of my lingerie got STOLEN by Virgin America TSA(yes, seriously and so creepy) and how hard we worked for hours to achieve this.

Huge thanks to my amazing friends and dream team who helped make this come together!
Photography: Bronson Farr // Styling: Josh Francisco // Art Direction: Sam Canvin

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I Tried the Black Charcoal Mask and This is What Happened

You guys. I had a near death experience. I used one of those stupid fucking black charcoal masks and it nearly ripped my face off. If you don’t get passed this whole blog post, just leave with my advice to never, ever, EVER try these masks. The funny thing is I have seen probably 1000 videos of people completely covering their faces in this wildly popular type of mask and screaming… crying… deep breathing, because it is so painful to get off. Did that stop me? No, no it didn’t because I thought “How bad could it really be” and “I’ll only apply it to my nose and chin.” Thinking I was prepared for what was to come… But ohhhh, girl was I wrong.

But let me not ramble any longer but show you my experience because you knowwww I recorded the entire thing on my Snapchat and InstaStory. So let my pain, be your viewing pleasure. 

Oh and if you’re wondering if it “worked”…considering it rips literally anything that comes in contact with your face off…sure. It removed black heads, hair, skin…and my dignity. Ok you get the point.

Follow my Instagram Stories and Snapchats because that’s where all the real shit happens in real time on the daily.

**I’m aware the audio isn’t matching the video — working on it. Sowee.