Oh yeah, I moved to Los Angeles

WOW. OMG. Hiiiii friends. I know, I know – shit, it has been awhile. Three months to be exact. But it’s taken me that long because it’s been quite impossible to rise above everything going on in life to feel an ounce of extra energy to blog. It seems like a long time but these last few months have honestly felt like a whirl wind of change…well, because it has been!

So, where the heck have I been? Well, to start since I never even announced it officially here on the blog….. I MOVED TO LOS ANGELES! 

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That’s right, I’m currently writing this post from my new place in West Hollywood! I’ve been here about three weeks so I’ m just finally recovering from the moving chose & stress, unpacking the last of my boxes and adjusting to my new space…and don’t even get me started on the characters that live in my building and all the hustle & bustle that is #soLA…I’ll save that for future posts.

So, why did I pack up my life and move?  It was definitely a combination of things and was not an easy decision. It’s actually been one of the most challenging, emotional, scary things I’ve had to do in my adult life. To pack my pretty fucking amazing life up and and move back to LA? Yeah, I know…seems wild. But that was just it, over the years, as I grew, I became more in tune with what I wanted and what I saw for my future and the Bay Area wasn’t part of it. I felt like I was in a long term relationship where I felt complacent and bored but was too scared to do anything about it…until now. I LOVE the Bay area SO SO SO MUCH and always will, but I’m not IN love with you anymore. And there is someone else I’ve been thinking about for far too long and his name is LA. Yeah, LA is a he in my book…are you surprised? LOL

What did I see in my future? Family. Personal Growth. Exploring my creativity. Opportunity. Excitement. Love. Challenging Myself. The unknown. And yes, of course, Poshmark for everyone always asking. 😉 The hardest thing is you can never predict what will happen in life, but you have to take chances to find out. You’re in charge of your happiness and no one else can make those decisions for you so I took charge and here I am. Am I missing my friends? FUCK YES. Do I miss the routine I had? OMG YES. Poshmark team, lunches and happy hours? DO I EVER. But I have confidence in myself and this decision. I have something burning inside that is ready to ignite and I am ready for it…and ready to share it all with you.

Thank you for all your support and following along this new adventure with me. Life isn’t perfect, and that’s ok! We’re all just trying to figure it out…and that’s exciting!

One thing you can expect is more videossss from me, so please subscribe to my baby YouTube channel and check out my first video! 🙂

 

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Why I’m Taking a Break from Online Dating

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Sometimes you need a BREAK. From working out, some friends, laundry, work, pretty much any and everything that can be overwhelming and suck the positive energy out of you. One thing that I constantly have to take breaks from? ONLINE DATING. I go in this cycle every few months where I just can’t. possibly. swipe left or ignore a d-bag type message any longer.

This time around, there are three clear reasons why I need a fucking break…

OVERALL SELECTION

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This is when you know it’s time. When you start seeing the same people on every app, profile pictures of guys in costumes or then you hit a wall where even the app itself tells you “girl, take a breather cause not even our algorithm can find a decent catch right now.”

THE AWFUL MESSAGES 

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CAN YOU EVEN?! Guys hide behind these apps and I am flabbergasted at the disgusting pigs some of them are. Here is the extreme of one pig and another cheeseball. SIGH. It is so frustrating sifting through messages like this — I only even responded because I could tell they were up to no good. You better believe I responded to the perv and gave him a piece of my mind.

ENERGY AND TIME SUCK
The hardest part of it all is feeling like you are wasting your time. I have thick skin and don’t let the above get to me, but time is precious so use it wisely!

And do I want to date? SURE! It’s not that I wouldn’t want to if it happened, but the actual effort it takes to online date, it sometimes feels like you are in an endless, hopeless, exhausting journey and when I start to feel that way – I am ouuuuuttt. Just as in life with anything, the minute you aren’t happy and excited about something, take a break and focus on the things that bring you joy!

Until next time my friends!

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Why I Did a Boudoir Photoshoot

I mean, why does anyone that isn’t a model take sexy boudoir photos of themselves? And no it’s not to become insta famous. For me, not only have I been busting my ass at the gym and eating kale all day healthy, I’ve at a place in my life where I feel the most happy and confident INSIDE as well. I am independent, strong, smart, successful. Fuck yeah I should celebrate those things…and when your inner happiness blossoms it really shows on the exterior as well.

I planned to take these photos a few months back so I could capture this beautiful moment in my life. For me to capture how I feel about myself – confident, sexy, loving, hopeful, open, badass. For me to know that this body I have is a temple. For me to have something to look back on and say DAMN girl. I did this FOR ME. Am I perfect? No, which is what I love. I’m imperfect and that’s what is REAL. No one is perfect, but you are YOU which is the most special and unique thing in this world.

If you’ve ever thought you can’t do something because of our world’s beauty standards, push the boundaries and do it. Everyone is beautiful. Everyone. Embrace yourself. Love yourself! 

This is just part one of this shoot, I plan to share what went into a shoot like this, how all of my lingerie got STOLEN by Virgin America TSA(yes, seriously and so creepy) and how hard we worked for hours to achieve this.

Huge thanks to my amazing friends and dream team who helped make this come together!
Photography: Bronson Farr // Styling: Josh Francisco // Art Direction: Sam Canvin

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